Equipped to Serve

"Then the LORD said to Moses,

'See I have chosen Bezalel son of Uri,

the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah,

and I have filled him with the Spirit of God,

with wisdom,

with understanding,

with knowledge

and all kinds of skills-

to make artistic designs for work in gold, silver and bronze,

to cut and set stones,

to work in wood,

and to engage in all kinds of crafts.

Moreover,

I have appointed Oholiab son of Ahisamak,

of the tribe of Dan, to help him.

Also I have given ability to all the skilled workers 

to make everything I have commanded you.'"

Exodus 31:1-6

"I'm not good enough."

"I don't know enough about God."

"I doubt anyone will listen to me."

"I've never been able to do anything like that before."

This is a list of the excuses Moses gave to God before the burning bush.  Despite the amazing miracles the Lord performed to reassure him, Moses remained skeptical.  His final response to God's patient encouragement was, "Send someone else."  (Exodus 3-4:17)

Even though I've read this account of the calling of Moses dozens of times, it never ceases to strike a familiar chord within me.  I can relate to Moses on so many levels!  It's easy to consider the signs and wonders God performed in his midst and ask, What's wrong with this guy?  Why is he so insecure?  

If I put myself in his shoes, however, and switch the command from going to visit Pharaoh in Egypt with speaking to a large group, leaving my family to live in a faraway mission field, or starting a new ministry or business, I suddenly empathize with his reluctant reaction.

God doesn't set me up for failure.  If He calls me to do something, He will give me what I need to accomplish the task He has set aside for me.  Therefore, I can live accordingly.

By Faith

The talk show host famous for inciting antagonism and fueling arguments by playing the so-called devil's advocate grilled Billy Graham in his familiar style.  Instead of getting a rise out of the famous evangelist, however, he received a response that stopped him in his tracks.  "You will never be able to reason your way to understanding; that will never work.  The 

gospel is something you have to take by faith."

God used Billy Graham to render Phil Donahue speechless.  Was it because he had studied different styles and prepared appropriate responses?  Did he possess such intuitive people skills that he was able to come up with the perfect come-back for each person?  Was he a polished debater who had spent hours practicing the art of deliberation?  

No, none of the above.  Instead, Billy Graham trusted God to provide the words each person needed to hear.  So, when he delivered the response that stopped Donahue cold, it wasn't just words he was delivering.  Instead, it was a way of life for Graham.  He had lived most of his life by faith, believing what God said simply because had God said it. 

While I tend to look at all the obstacles I see around me and question whether God can really meet all my needs like He has promised, a faith-filled response would be, "God will provide." (Matthew 6:33)  When I focus on the pain that overwhelms coupled with the depressing odds given by the medical experts, a faith-filled attitude would be, "With God nothing is impossible." (Luke 1:37)  When I sense God calling me to what seems to be out of the question considering my abilities, a faith-filled reaction would be, "Here I am; send me." (Isaiah 1:7-8)

Walking forward in faith is possible when I place more clout in God and His abilities than in me and my lack thereof.

In Action

I opened my eyes but could see nothing around me.  The darkness was so deep that it seemed to close in on me, making me feel claustrophobic.  We had lost power after a storm and the lack of light in the dead of the night was absolute.  Still, I needed to find my way to the bathroom.  Knowing the familiar route from my bed to the toilet should have been easy, but without the benefit of my vision, it was a scary thing to take each step.  I knew the floor was solid beneath my feet and the way clear of obstacles, but I still hesitated, unsure if I could make it without incident.

I depend on my vision so much that when I lose it for a time, like after that fateful storm, it is hard to function.  My ability to make it to the bathroom depended on a faith in my memory of the route as well as the integrity of the floor.  While it may have felt I would step off a precipice at any moment, I knew without a doubt that the house had not given way.  Therefore, I willed myself to move forward, believing that everything was as I had left it before going to bed.

It's the same with God.  I know much about Him from reading His Word and have seen Him work in some mighty ways as He provided exactly what I needed, protected me from harm and gave me the strength to carry on.  Still, when I'm faced with the next obstacle, need or calling, I tend to doubt, putting more clout in what I can sense than in the God who I can't see, touch or feel.

Faith is not about what goes on inside of me, but in what comes out through action.  I can talk and think about what I believe all day long, but unless I put it into practice, it isn't real.  Unless I go when God says, "Go!" or I move when God says, "Move!"  or I wait when God says, "Wait!" my faith means nothing. (James 2:14-26)

Faith without action is no faith at all.

With Confidence

His sense of self-assurance bordered on cockiness.  When the business executive walked into the room, he commanded the attention of all in attendance.  The people gathered for the presentation believed everything he said simply because he sounded so sure of himself.  I wondered how he could be so confident.

While some people seem to be born with a strong ability to believe in themselves and their abilities, others are so insecure they don't think they are able to complete even the simplest of tasks.  Most people fall somewhere in between these two extremes.  While our culture extols the virtues of developing a strong sense of self and belief in what we can do, I learn a conflicting truth in God's Word. (Philippians 3:3)

Instead of a trust in myself and belief in my own abilities driving me forward in self-assurance, I can step forward in faith based on my confidence in a powerful, sovereign God who is faithful to keep His promises. (Psalm 118:8-9)  Peter demonstrated this God-confidence when he spoke boldly before the intimidating Sanhederin, the Jewish ruling council.  

As a follower of Jesus, Peter had heard Jesus say they would do even greater things than He. (John 14:12-14)  By faith, then, Peter and John stepped out in ministry, spreading the Good News and healing people.  When the Holy Spirit gave Peter the words to defend himself against the accusations of the skeptical Jewish leaders, they were astonished by his courage and could not deny the miracle of the once lame man now standing before them.  It was obvious there was something different about this man.  (Acts 4:8-17)

I can possess the same confidence Peter exhibited if I would only believe in what God is able to accomplish through me.  When I trust Him enough to move forward in faith, I will exude a similar confidence, boldly approaching the throne of grace to receive all I need to carry out the task set before me. (Hebrews 4:16) Sometimes that is to endure hardship, other times it is to speak with power, or even to accomplish an overwhelming mission.  Whatever I am called to do, I can move forward with the assurance of one who is thoroughly equipped through God's indwelling Spirit. (Ephesians 3:20)

When I walk by faith I will move with confidence in the One who equips me for every good work that He has called me to do.  (Ephesians 2:10)

God gives each of us a mission but He doesn't leave us to our own devices.  Instead, He provides everything we need to accomplish the task at hand.  Therefore, I can walk forward with the belief that He will supply, proving that my faith is real and giving me a confidence not in myself, but in the One who is the source of all good things.  There is no doubt that God can be trusted as my Provider, but I will only discover this truth if I step blindly forward, before I see any evidence of this provision.  It is then that I will see how I am equipped to serve.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I can trust God enough to obey His calling on my life.  

When do I let my own insecurities hold me back?

How can I keep my eyes on the power of God instead of my own lack of abilities?       

Lasting Memorial

"Once a year,

Aaron shall make atonement on its horns.

This annual atonement must be made

with the blood of the atoning sin offering

for generations to come.

It is most holy to the LORD."

Exodus 30:10

". . .we have an advocate with the Father-

Jesus Christ,the Righteous One.

He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins,

and not only for ours

but also for the sins of the whole world."

1 John 2:1b-2

The lamb was led to the Tabernacle by the sinner.  The man then laid his hands upon the head of the animal, transferring his sin to the little creature.  After the lamb was sacrificed, the blood was drained and the priest dipped his finger in the warm liquid, transferring it to the horns of the altar of burnt offering.  The remaining blood was then poured at the base of the altar.  Finally, the fat was removed from the carcass and burned on top of the food offerings.  Atonement was then complete, his sin forgiven. (Leviticus 4:32-35)

Thankfully, we are no longer required to make such a sacrifice for our sins.  Jesus Christ became the perfect and final sacrifice for our sins, pouring His own blood out at the foot of cross in atonement for the transgressions of all mankind.  Consequently, God is faithful and just, able to forgive us our sins through the atoning sin offering made by Christ. (1 John 1:9)

Even though the detailed instructions God passed on to His people through Moses don't apply to me anymore, there is a truth about my identity in Christ hidden within.

Ransom

The census began for the nation of Israel.  As each adult 20-years-of-age and older was counted, whether rich or poor, he was required to give one-half of a shekel as a ransom paid for his own life.  Every time a census was taken, then, the people who belonged to the Lord remembered that there was a required price to be paid for their own lives. (Exodus 30:11-16)

In the same way, there was a dear price paid for my life.  As a sinner without hope of living in relationship with the One who made me and loves me dearly, there was no price I could pay to make up for my own sin. (Romans 3:23, Romans 8:3) When God, out of His great love for me, sent His only Son as a sacrifice for my sins, His life became the ransom paid in return for my life.  (Hebrews 9:15)

In order to remind myself of the steep price Jesus paid for my life, it is important that I keep my identity as a ransomed sinner in mind.  My life no longer belongs to me to do with as I wish.  Instead, Jesus paid the ultimate price in giving His life in return for mine.  Therefore, willingly placing my life into His hands, letting Him use me as He sees fit is the ultimate memorial of His atoning sacrifice.  (1 Corinthians 6:20, Romans 12:1)

In the same way that the Israelites were required to purchase their own life with a ransom, mine has already been bought and paid for by Jesus.  

Cleansing

The priests were required to wash their hands and feet in the bronze basin before entering the Tent of Meeting.  When they were about to present a food offering, they also were commanded to cleanse themselves in preparation for this important ministry.  Failing to follow this purification ritual would result in death.  (Exodus 30:17-21)

Holiness is important to the Lord.  He is perfect, righteous and just and cannot abide with sin of any kind.  As a symbol of this need for purity, priests who ministered directly before the Lord and acted as a go-between for the people were required to go through a ritual of cleansing. 

In the same way that those who were called into service before the Lord needed cleansing, Jesus has performed that ritual for me in the shedding of His blood on the cross.  He effectively cleansed me from all unrighteousness for all time, making me ready for His use.  (1 John 1:7)  He has taken my guilt and removed it, freeing me up to serve Him as one who is fit for service.  (Isaiah 1:18)  There is nothing I can do to make myself fit, rather, it is what Jesus has already done on the cross that I must accept by faith that does the job.  Once I place my trust in Him to cleanse me, I will be fitted for the purpose for which He created me.  (Ephesians 2:10)

In the same way the priests were required to cleanse before service, I have been prepared in Christ Jesus to do good works.

Anointing

It was a special recipe set aside exclusively for one purpose and one purpose only: to consecrate as holy the items used for sacrifice and temple service as well as the priests who performed the sacred rituals.  This was no ordinary perfume and no matter how much one enjoyed it's scent, this oil was to be set aside as special.  An anointing with this oil transformed an ordinary object into a holy one.  Anything that then touched the sacred would become consecrated.  (Exodus 30:22-33)

Even though I am no longer required to whip up this special recipe of oil, the blood of Jesus has served the same purpose, anointing me for His holy purposes.  (Hebrews 10:10, Colossians 1:22)  There is nothing left for me to do, no effort I can put forth or no further sacrifice needing to be made that will add to what Jesus has already done.  Through faith in Jesus Christ and His sacrifice, I am made right with God and deemed as holy in His eyes. 

Therefore, there is no need for shame over past or present sins, guilt in the face of my own inability to perform, or disappointment that I can't live up to God's perfect standard.  Instead, I have been anointed with the holy oil of Jesus' blood, making me in right standing with Him.  Now I can go forward in confidence, boldly entering into His presence as one who belongs and is dearly loved as His child.  (Hebrews 4:16,1 John 3:1)

In the same way that a special oil made the priests and tools of ministry holy, the blood of Jesus has anointed me with righteousness.  (1 Corinthians 1:30, 2 Corinthians 5:21)

Incense

All the fragrant spices; gum resin, onycha, galbanum and frankincense, were to be taken in equal amounts in order to create a special incense.  Once it was ground into powder, it was to be placed before the Testimony in the Tent of Meeting, the place where the Lord met with Moses.  It's scent was to be only for the enjoyment of the Lord. (Exodus 30:34-38)

This special incense was never to be used only for human pleasure but was set aside for the Lord.  Even though I've never used incense to bring delight to the Lord, the sacrifice Jesus made is like a sweet-smelling aroma to our Father.  (Ephesians 5:1-2)  As I follow in His footsteps, allowing His love to flow out to others, His aroma becomes mine, drawing those around me to Christ.  (2 Corinthians 2:15)

In the same way Moses was required to make a special incense to burn before the Lord, I emit the aroma of Christ to a world that desperately needs His sweet salvation.

Before Christ, there were many rituals required by God to bring His people into right standing with Him.  As one who benefits from the sacrifice Christ made, I find that He paid a ransom for my life, cleanses me with His blood, anoints me for His purposes and gives off an aroma pleasing to the Lord that draws others to Him.  In these ways, the Old Testament rituals are transformed into meaningful memorials of the sanctifying work of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I can always remember the way Jesus made it possible for me to live in a right relationship with a holy God.

How do I forget how precious is this sacrifice that Jesus has made?

When do I take for granted the salvation that comes through Christ?  

Attention to Detail

"Then have them make a sanctuary for me,

and I will dwell among them.

Make this tabernacle and all its furnishings

exactly like the pattern I will show you."

Exodus 25:8-9

Butterflies gracefully fluttered around my flower garden, landing on blooms in order to harvest their sweet nectar.  Orange embellished with ornate markings; lemon-yellow, magnificent in their simplicity; deep cobalt blue contrasted with inky black; these were some of the beauties I observed enjoying the colorful zinnias.

Taking a moment to relish the beauty of God's creation found in my backyard, I realize something that is confirmed in the tedious instructions God gave for making the tabernacle:  the Lord is a God of detail.  While I can't say that I enjoy this particular passage of scripture, as with all of His Word, it reveals something about His character.  

God of Detail

"Join five of the curtains together, and do the same with the other five.  Make loops of blue material along the edge of the end curtain in one set, and do the same with the end curtain in the other set.  Make fifty loops on one curtain and fifty loops on the end curtain of the other set, with the loops opposite each other.  Then make fifty gold clasps and use them to fasten the curtains together so that the tabernacle is a unit."  Exodus 26:3-6

This reads like an instruction manual of a complicated construction project that utilizes all kinds of artistic skills I know little about like precious metal-works, stone cutting, structure building, woodwork and needlework.   Wading through the comprehensive directions, I come to the conclusion that details are important to God.  While I may not be building a tabernacle myself, I must realize that each of His words are significant. 

Since the Lord is a God of detail, I would be wise to take my time when reading the holy scripture.  Instead of focusing on how much I am able to cover in a day, it is more important that I reflect on His Words, pausing when a certain passage stands out to me, meditating on it and searching for the meaning found there.  

It kind of reminds me of a scene found in Disney's Ratatouille where Remy, the determined rat who finds his satisfaction in preparing, presenting and savoring food, tries to share his passion with with his older brother Emile.  Remy offers him a piece of expensive cheese which Emile quickly consumes.  In frustration, Remy whacks him over the head, crying out, "Don't just hork it down!"  Remy wanted Emile to relish the taste, searching for flavors hidden within and delighting in the experience of combining different foods.  Emile, however, was only interested in consuming as much as possible without regard to his palate.

In the same way, God's Word is meant to be savored.  I must pay attention when reading, responding to the Holy Spirit as He draws my attention to a certain passage.  As I take pleasure in reading scripture, I will find many lessons there, drawing meaning where it seems there is none, finding enlightenment from the tiniest of sections and discerning conviction for certain areas of sin in my life.  

When I slow down and appreciate God's Word, He will use it to teach me, point out strongholds of sin, correct my way of thinking, speaking and behaving, and train me how to purposefully live according to His will. (2 Timothy 3:16)  If I skim over the words on the page, however, I will miss the purpose hidden there just waiting for me to discover.

Since the Lord is a God of detail, I must read His Word carefully, savoring every detail.

God of the Insignificant

It didn't seem that important to me, but my daughter pointed out the detail I had passed right by without a thought.  "Look at the spider's web stretched between those trees."  As my gaze followed her pointing finger, I suddenly saw the intricate masterpiece embellished with the morning dew that she had observed on our daily walk.  I was so busy keeping up a fast pace that I hadn't taken the time to look around me.

Examining the detail found in the web of a spider reminds me that God pays attention to the smallest of creatures.  He is not just concerned with the big things, but with the small as well.  Therefore, I can be assured that the tiniest cut on my finger does not escape His attention.  While I may assume that I shouldn't bother Him with the small stuff, He wants me to place those seemingly insignificant irritants into His hands.  

When I'm tempted to sweep my disappointments under the rug, then, I can be assured that He cares about what I'm feeling, even if those around me tell me I'm upset for nothing.  Or when I tell myself that God does not want to be bothered by my irrational fears, I can remember that He takes pleasure in reassuring me of His constant presence.  Even when I fret over the particulars by which no one else seems to be bothered, I can find reassurance in His attention to the details of my life.

Since the Lord is a God of the insignificant, I can find comfort in His attention to the seemingly small stuff.

Wide-Angle Lens

Looking through the lens of the monocular, I was able to view amazing details on the side of the mountain slope.  Even though I was hundreds of yards away, I was able to see a mountain goat climbing along an embankment as if I were standing close by.  Even though I was impressed by the fine features I could pick out, it was impossible to see the entire mountain through that one lens.  In order to take in the scope of the breathtaking landscape before me, I needed to view it through a wide-angled lens.

God can see the scope of things with His naked eye.  He doesn't need help to see the fine details, but neither does His range lack in any way.  Instead, the Lord perceives the big picture, taking into account both my past as well as my future, able to see how my life intersects with others and how certain events will influence my decisions.  It can be said that He looks at life through a wide-angle lens.

Therefore, I need not worry about tomorrow since He has gone before me. (Deuteronomy 31:8)  Equally as assuring is the fact that He has full knowledge of my past, completely comprehending how events shape the way I think and react.  (Psalm 139:3)  Since He is sovereign, He directs the paths of those who I need in order to complete my own journey.  As a result, I can rest in the knowledge that He has my life and its direction in His hands.

Since the Lord is a God with a wide-angled lens, I can trust Him to see everything at once and know how it all fits together.

There is no doubt that God is unique in all His ways.  He not only pays attention to tiny details, but He also cares about the things that seem insignificant or unimportant.  Finally, He is a God who views all things at once, never limited in His scope.  As a result of His distinct and extraordinary nature, I can trust Him in all things.  He is a God who pays attention to detail.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I can rest in the knowledge that God sees both the big and the small.

When do I hesitate to trust God in something that seems too small for Him to be bothered?

How do I think God is like me, and can only see things from a limited human perspective?  

God of Mercy

"You must not follow the crowds in doing wrong.

When you are called to testify in a dispute,

do not be swayed by the crowd to twist justice.

And do not slant your testimony in favor of a person

just because that person is poor.

If you come upon your enemy's ox or donkey

that has strayed away,

take it back to its owner.

If you see that the donkey of someone who hates you

has collapsed under its load,

do not walk by.  Instead, stop and help.

In a lawsuit, you must not deny justice to the poor."

Exodus 23:2-6

Mercy: 

(1) kind or forgiving treatment of someone who could be treated harshly

(2) kindness or help given to people who are in a very bad or desperate situation*

Of all the people to see broken down on the side of the road, it had to be her.  The woman in question had hurt me so much, turning her back on me in my greatest hour of need and even going so far as to spread lies to my neighbors.  I hadn't seen this woman in years, but the simple sight of her vehicle brought back all the hurt, humiliation and pain of that time in my life.  I had half a notion just to pass her by, letting her suffer in return for all the ways she brought trouble into my own life.  Then, I felt the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit on my heart.  Stop.  She needs you help right now.

While it is easy to withhold help from those who are cruel to me, God has another plan for my life.  I can never forget that it is death that I truly deserve.  (Romans 6:23, Psalm 130:3)  Due to God's great love and mercy, however, He offers life through simple faith in Jesus Christ my Lord. (John 14:6)  God is a God of mercy, and as His child, He wants me to be known as such as well.

Enemies

It was a curious thing to see: goats and a baby lion romping around together in a pen.  My daughter and I were doing some channel surfing and had run across a program showing the results of an interesting experiment where natural enemies were raised together a friends. Instead of  following their instinctive predatory nature, they learned to get a long with each other.  Busch Gardens in Tampa, Florida even raised a dog and a cheetah together, demonstrating that natural enemies can develop close bonds if introduced to each other at a young age.

Watching these unlikely friendships form made me think of my own enemies.  I may not have anyone who is out to kill me, but there are those who rub me the wrong way, or seem to make it their life's work to try to bring me down, or who just don't seem to like me.  It is hard to treat such people with respect.  Instead, I'd rather give them a dose of their own medicine.

Paul gives me specific instructions in how God desires me to deal with those who are cruel to me.  He says to bless them, join them in times of joy and periods of grief, never assume they're the problem but instead do what I can to live in peace, do right in the eyes of everyone, leave vengeance to Him, and let good overcome the evil in my heart. (Romans 12:14-21) This is a tall order.

When I remember the only reason I'm still allowed to take another breathe is by the mercy of God, I can offer this same mercy to others.  Instead of pointing the finger at how much hurt others cause, I can realize there are three fingers pointing back at me, condemning me for my own selfish point of view.  As much as I feel slighted by others, I must understand that I have been on the giving end as many times as I have received.  If I think I'm not guilty of hurting another, I am not seeing the truth about myself.  (1 John 1:8)

As a child of a merciful God, I will be known as one who loves my enemies when I realize I used to be God's enemy.  (Romans 5:8)

Peer Pressure

Everyone said they saw him do it.  As a result, they all signed sworn statements, testifying to the fact that they were sure they knew who perpetrated the robbery.  The lone dissenter, however, refused to sign.  Instead, she stuck to her story that she had seen a different man enter the convenience store as she headed out the door.  Even though the majority of witness accounts conflicted with hers, she stood by what she knew to be the truth.  She didn't let peer pressure influence her testimony.

It is hard to go against the flow, standing strong against the crowd, especially when others speak with confidence and a sense of conviction.  There is something about human nature that makes me question my own memory when no one else shares my recollection.

God knows what makes humans tick.  Therefore, He warns against letting peer pressure influence the truth.  Many a man has been wrongfully convicted because someone was afraid to stand up for what they knew was right.  While I may not find myself as a witness to a crime, there are times when I am tempted to cave in to the pressure of the majority.

It could be when it seems everyone around me is speaking what they see as the truth but I know is clearly fallacy.  Maybe God placed me in such a position to be able to enlighten others in love.  

Other times I could be the only one around the proverbial water cooler who carries a godly perspective on current events.  Instead of staying silent to keep the peace, I could interject the truth in a way that makes others question their own beliefs.

Then there are times when I witness a stranger abusing another in a public setting.  While it is easy to tell myself that someone else will step forward, it could be that I am the victim's only hope.

As a child of a merciful God, I will be known as one who is immune to peer pressure when I remember the risk Jesus took to save my life.

Protect Innocent

I mindlessly set about my daily task of watering the hanging ferns on my porch.  Deep in thought, I wasn't paying attention to the task at hand and pointed the hose directly into the center of the plant, forgetting about the nest of finches nestled within.  Suddenly, two baby birds were washed away, landing helpless and vulnerable on the ground.

While I did manage to return those babies to their nest, I scolded myself for my carelessness.  Instead of upholding my place as a protector of those tiny birds, I had inadvertently endangered their lives.

God wants me to take on the role of an advocate for the weak.  There are those who God has placed in my path because they need protection.  Therefore, I would be wise to keep on the lookout.

If I'm paying attention, I will find the quiet victim who needs a voice that I can lend.  I may also find the vulnerable who don't even realize the danger that lies all around.  My unique perspective makes me the one who can protect them from peril.  I also may become the source of hope for the powerless who cannot defend themselves.

As a child of a merciful God, I will be known as one who protects the innocent when I realize my own vulnerability before Him.

As one who benefits from the sacrifice Jesus made on the cross, I am to extend the same kind of mercy He freely gives to me.  He desires that I be known as a lover of my enemies, a woman with a strong backbone and a protector of the innocent.  When I embrace my true identity as a sinner saved by grace, the mercy God is known for will also flow from me.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I will not block the flow of mercy out to others.

When do I let peer pressure hold me back from speaking the truth?

How do I miss the weak who need my protection?  

* http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/mercy

Ministry of Restitution

"A thief who is caught must pay in full

for everything he stole."

Exodus 22:3

He hurt a lot of people.  As the reformed criminal sat in prison, newly freed from the guilt and punishment earned by his sin but pondering the consequences still left for him to face, a feeling of compassion swept over him.  Faith in Jesus Christ had transformed his heart and he knew he had to try to make things right.  He had callously sent a family into turmoil when he acted in that fateful moment of rage, wreaking havoc in the hearts of a wife, five children, and an extended family.  The lives of these poor people would never be the same because of his selfishness.  He had to try to make things right.

While he knew there was nothing that could replace the life of this man, there was something he could do to ease the burden left in the wake of his crime spree.  In humble obedience to his new Master, he did what he could to provide income for the victim's family.  He labored hard to earn what little he could in the prison's work program and sent the money anonymously to the family.  He also prayed for them often and arranged for the children to receive gifts through secret Santa programs at Christmas time.  

God's heart is one that encourages restitution.  Hebrews 12:14 reveals His desire that I "work at living in peace with everyone."  Sometimes that means I need to make up for the hurt I have caused.  However God leads me to go about doing that, it is clear that I am to carry an attitude of restitution.

Ease Pain

It was hard to focus on anything else because the pain was so great.  My dad had recently lost his leg in a motorcycle accident and was laying in recovery after a second surgery to remove some more damaged tissue.  He was hurting so badly that he didn't even know I was in the room.  I could see in his eyes that the pain overwhelmed him, becoming the center of his attention.  Until the drugs kicked in, my dad would not be able to rest.

In the same way that strong medication can ease the pain enough to let a patient move forward in their recovery, so a victim cannot begin the process of healing until the suffering has subsided.  While there may be nothing I can do to right a wrong I have committed, I can at least ease a bit of the pain that is left behind.

Sometimes this means I must reach out in compassion.  Other times it is necessary for me to act from afar so as not to make matters worse.  However God leads me to act, though, my desire to make amends can ease the pain and suffering I caused enough to promote healing.

When I follow God's lead and take part in the ministry of restitution, He can use me to help ease a bit of the pain I brought about.

Promote Forgiveness

Her father was long dead and gone but the bitterness left by his cruel actions remained.  She lived a life of bondage to her unforgiveness.  Even though he couldn't hurt her anymore, the pain of past actions left open wounds in her heart, handicapping her ability to function as a wife and mother.  Extending the forgiveness Jesus made possible for her was her only hope of recovery.

It is difficult to forgive someone who has hurt me.  In certain situations, an act of goodwill by the one who hurt me can touch my heart in such a way that would break down my defenses.  Soon, I may find myself moving toward forgiveness.

Other times, the idea of letting the offense go is too much for me to bear.  If, however, I see the offender laboring hard on my behalf in an honest spirit of repentance, it may be enough to introduce the idea of forgiveness into my consciousness.

When I have hurt another with my actions or attitude, a simple act of kindness toward the one I wounded may be enough to break down the callous wall erected for their protection.

When I follow God's lead and take part in the ministry of restitution, I can promote forgiveness in those I hurt.

Discourage Sin

He was required to invest hours of labor, spending much of his free time cleaning up the park where he had committed the crime.  While he had never done this kind of work before, he found picking up litter, cleaning public bathrooms and emptying garbage cans to be unpleasant to say the least.  As soon as he finished his community service, the young man vowed never again find himself on the wrong side of the law.

Keeping in mind the difficulty of restitution can make me think twice before I again commit the same offense.  When I remember how long it took for me to regain the trust of a friend after betraying our friendship, I will be more careful when I am tempted to reveal what she has told me in confidence.

Other times, it may be the length of time I labored in prayer over the wounded heart of a neighbor that discourages me from once again reacting in anger.  Or, when I think of the effort it took to earn back what I lost, whether it be trust, peace or my reputation, I will be discouraged from re-committing the same act of folly.

When I follow God's lead and take part in the ministry of restitution, I will think twice before committing the same sin again.

While there are some instances when my effort to make up for what I did wrong could do more damage than good, God desires for His people to carry an attitude of restitution.  In order to make sure I act in a way that will be well-received by those I hurt, I would be wise to follow the lead of the Holy Spirit.  When I do, I will find that restoration may help ease some of the pain I caused, promote a spirit of forgiveness, and discourage a repeat of the same sin.  In these ways, the ministry of restitution is a vital part of living in peace with one another.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I can look for how God is leading me to make things right.

When do I only feel guilty for things I have done but don't seek restitution?

How could my willingness to go above and beyond what is necessary promote forgiveness in the hearts of those I hurt?    

Healthy Fear

"Moses said to the people,

'Do not be afraid.

God has come to test you,

so that the fear of God will be with you

to keep you from sinning.'"

Exodus 20:20

Smoke rose from the mountain, obscuring it from their sight.  Light flashed from within the cloud, sending peels of thunder that threatened to burst the eardrums of those gathered at the foot of the hill.  Then, as if to make sure everyone was listening, the sound of a trumpet blast destroyed any sense of peace and security anyone had left.  The people of Israel were left shaking in their skin.

"Forget this!  We would rather have you speak to us, Moses.  We'll listen, we promise.  Just don't have God speak to us directly again or we will die!"  (paraphrased from Exodus 20:18-19)

The Israelites came face-to-face with the holiness and sheer power of God and realized it was too much for them.  They no longer thought of God only as their benevolent Deliverer, but also realized His righteousness, sense of justice and might.  Suddenly, they didn't want to have any personal contact out of shear fear.

It is good for me to have a sense of awe and respect for God, but not to the point where I want Him to remain at a distance; there must be a good balance.  Therefore, here are some things God wants me to understand about cultivating a healthy fear of Him.

Not Afraid

The judge had the power to condemn her to prison or set her free.  Therefore, in her guilt, she searched for a defense attorney who could plead her case and serve as an advocate before such a man of power.

In the same way, I am guilty of breaking God's perfect law and therefore am condemned to death. (1 John 1:10, Romans 6:23)  Because of my position as a sinner, I cannot come into the presence of such a holy God.  I need a mediator who will plead my case before the righteous Judge.  I need Jesus Christ.

Jesus serves as my high priest.  He stands between me and God with the blood of His perfect sacrifice covering my awful sin.  Since I have accepted Jesus as my Savior, I need not be afraid of God.  Instead, I can boldly approach His throne of grace with the confidence that comes from knowing I have been made right with Him. (Hebrews 4:14-16) I need not fear.

God does not want me to be so afraid of Him that I will not come to Him with my deepest struggles or trust Him with my heaviest burdens.  Instead, He has made a way through His Son Jesus Christ to transform me from a guilty sinner into a beloved child. (1 John 3:1) As His daughter, then, I can come to Him at any time, knowing that He will shower me with love and blessings like any loving father does.

Therefore, I need not fear His wrath will devour me when I fail yet again, disappointing my own expectations.  Instead, I can have the assurance that there is nothing that can separate me from His great love.  (Romans 8:38-39)

God does not want me to be afraid of Him but to come to Him with all my fears and to trust Him to take care of all my needs.

Reverence

The little girl loved her daddy.  They often played together on the living room floor; she would climb on his back and he would make the trek around the house like a horse.  One day as the preschooler climbed onto her father's back, she demanded, "Go!  I'm the boss of you!"  She punctuated her command with a swift kick to the gut.

Firmly, the man removed his daughter from his back, looked her in the eyes and said, "You must never forget I am your father."  He wanted her to know that she had crossed the line of respect, treating him as she would a pet or playmate.

It is the same with me and God.  While He wants me to feel comfortable enough to approach Him freely, I must never forget His holiness, awesomeness and sovereign power.  I am not to take Him lightly.

When I am tempted to speak of Him as, "The man upstairs," then, I would be wise to think of a more respectful term. (Proverbs 9:10) When I am looking for someone to blame for my wretched circumstances, I would be wise to not cast blame on the One who holds my life in His hands. (Job 38-40)  When I turn my critical eye toward myself, picking apart my looks or personality, I would be wise to not question the way God knit me together.  (Isaiah 29:16)

While I need not be afraid of God, I do need to develop a reverence toward the Holy One of Israel.

Offense

Curse words didn't bother me.  Vile jokes failed to offend.  Sex outside of marriage was not a big deal.  These were my mindsets before I developed a healthy fear of God.  Not comprehending His sacred nature, sin had virtually no affect on me.  

Once I began to take God seriously, however, and reverence Him as holy, I no longer felt comfortable with sin.  Instead of cozying up to it, I became more sensitive to it's destruction.  While I used to wear my sin nature like a comfortable sweater, my understanding of the holiness of God makes it feel more like what Paul called a body of death.  (Romans 7:21-25)

The closer I draw to the Lord, the more His Spirit makes me realize what a serious offense my sin is to God.  Therefore, I don't want to treat sin like an intimate friend but rather like my worst enemy.  (1 John 3:4-10)

Developing a reverent attitude toward God awakens in me a realization of how offensive my sin is to Him.

While God doesn't want me to be afraid of Him, He does desire me to possess a deep reverence for Him as a holy God.  As this attitude of awe grows, the offensiveness of my own sin will also become apparent.  It is then that I have developed a healthy fear of the Lord.

As I begin this day it is my prayer that I will reserve a reverence for the Lord.

When do I feel afraid of God?

How do I treat the Lord as if He were here for me instead of the other way around?